Ten Thousand Fists

well iv just got back from bali and it was all good fun! i had a ball of a time! and to shock u all i didnt get sick or injured! i know how weird is that its definately a first for me!!! (r u proud of me Elizabeth) it was so good... but neways yes iv come back with a new perspective (kinda) its more of a perspective that iv been working off of for a while!

well the main thing is that im goin to try a more controlled yet relaxed thing it sounds really strange and its hard to explain but generally the idea is that instead of letting myself get stressed out and get overly depressed and all of that im going to turn to music even more then before im going back to my roots you could almost say i mean it makes perfect sense instead of taking it all out on myself and go all crazy im goin to take it out through music! now u dont have to worry im not going to start writing music or nething like that im just goin to have my cds and im just gonna blast the crap out of them and just tune out to the music, i used to do this for sure but not to the extent that im planned to go now.. i see that with my music i can use it to escape to zone out to destroy reality and live in my own domain... i think it will work itll stop me from blowing my fuse im just going to take my MP3 everywhere and ignore the world wen it beats down on me... i know alot of u probably do this like i do but this time im letting go to the music im letting the music beat the anger and hate out of me and relax me.. itll make me a more relaxed person... maybe slightly more anti social but its better this then blowing up at someone which i think iv done to everyone to some point...

i know this sounds simple and stupid but i grew up through music so im just going home in my mind.. but dont worry im not going to start wearing the dark clothes yet... ill just be a natural goth ill wear my normal clothes but ill be intuned to the music...

wat do u think? i think its gonna help me out and stop me from getting so stressed as i normally do??? ne opinions?
well neways just thought id share that with u just incase im not as social as i used to be!