only translate if u really wanna know wat it says

its up to u whether or not u translated that but mainly i just had to write it...i had to get it off of my chest i had to let u know only if u wanted to know tho...so please really i do read if u want its not nice but its the new reality...


so far this term iv been stuck at home unable to do nething because of suffering such unbearable lows that are pretty much unstopable...i know u all think that im strong but im not im not the persone uthink i am im weak im nothing...iv been sitting in a dark room since yesterday trying to find the courage to leave the security of the familiar darkness...this chatroom iv been goin to its a great website but i let someone down when they needed a friend the moment wen they needed someone to sit there and tell them that they should keep goin but wat do i do i just sat there a agreed with them...y did i do this y did i try and stop them u might ask well the answer to that is simply because it thought that it would be hypocritical of me to say other wise...i have made my apologies to chantal but nothing will take away this deep seeded guilt that overwhelms me now which stops me from getting out of bed in the morning which keeps these tears constantly flowing...im sorry i never meant those things i should never have said them i know it was wrong...my selfishness obstructed me from helping someone...someone who was in need...someone who was crying out for help...im no strong person i am a coward and a monster...as i type this the tears stream from my eyes...my head races with confussion and my blood fuses with this hatred and anger...