Brick wall

so here i sit alone in my study...i should be in period 4 right now but robbo allowed me not to go to some of my classes so as to help...
so im writing this on biancas computer as tears swell up my eyes till the screen is blurred and i can only see it wen i wipe away the tears...
you might ask wats wrong with me and i wish i could answer that question for u but there is no simple explanation and there is no nice way of saying it...
i have gone to 2 out of 4 classes so far today but in those classes i couldnt focus or concentrate on one thing at a time...
my thoughts are so random and they are moving at a rapid pace to quick for me to fully grasp the reason for why i had, had that thought to begin with!
well its almost lunchtime which means ppl will be coming back
and that means more and more questions
and more insensitiveness while i act the happy fool for everyone elses sake...