Im ready
Im worn out...im tired...im sick...i dont mean this in the physical sense but more as in the mental sense...on the outside i smile and laugh with those around me and and wish with a bitter jealousy that i were them...im so tired of fightin the some battles in my head day after day...im sick of everyday being exactly like the last...i can no longer do well at social things im more reserved and betray my personality...
im ready for the next stage in my life...i dont know wat it is yet but i know that im ready for it all the same! i hope with all thats left of my bleeding heart that all of u r safe and never reach such a point of complete loneliness in ur life...but for those who mightv already or will in the future i feel for u with overwhelming pity regret for not helping u b4 it got to this stage!
as u can tell im not havin a great week...
i dunno...i just need to be alone....i dont know how long...but i know that its alot longer then i deserve! i made a promise with myself that i would help u (my friends) with wateva the problem no matter how big or how small...im sorry i have failed forgive me!
posted by CJ @ 3:23 pm
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3 Comments:
We've been through this before. You have not failed Don't put these expectations on yourself. If you need to talk, call me.
Elizabeth
you haven't failed how can you say that? and you do help, you've helped me and you hardly even know me...
and even if you want to be alone...you still have to come online at 8:30 tomorrow for our party!! :) dont forget that we're here for you too
thanks but as elizabeth knows i put myself under alot of pressure to help and if i dont think i have helped ppl i go like that...kinda pathetic...
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