dont know why

I've been thinking alot lately.. not about anything specific i must say but i have been thinking alot.. i feel like im wriggling in my skin to do something wanting to burst out and be sucked up into a vortex of creativity but it aint happening.. all i find is me getting mor frustrated and getting less hours in a day to do things..

but ANYWAY you see me all the time now so i dont really have anything as such to report.. yes i do lead a rather boring existence thank you for thinking that :P
although last night Sez and i went to the Behind Crimson Eyes concert and it was really good i enjoyed myself alot and i hope sez did too!!

i dont know if anyone will even read this, i guess it doesnt matter if anyone does or doesnt.. its just a silly little thing which i never write on anyway.. so i guess its almost somewhat pointless.. I didnt know whether i should start the religion again or not, i guess i probably wont unless people want me too, i mean its all good and fun but is there really any point to it? or is it just me making my self out ot be something more important then what i am??!! i dont know..
hmm now i guess im starting to whine but hey guess what its my blog so i can if i want.. and i have to let it out somehow otherwise ill do something stupid and ill regret it and then ill feel stupider so ill do it again and then it becomes a vicious and ugly circle of regret and stupidity..

i think we all need a break just to get away either spend it with friends or alone just time to get out of the concrete walls just fucking break free and move on with shit for a change.. dont you ever get that suffocating feeling when your in a room, its not claustrophobia but more knowing that you have so many pressures pushing on you and that the walls around you are just echoing your screaming mind?? maybe not.. but thats how i feel sometimes when im in a room pathetic maybe but i guess im just not meant to be locked in a room give me a park anyday i love the openness and the freshness and the relaxation.. yes how hippy of me but its true its better then being in a cramped room with dull lighting and solid walls..

maybe im just tired and in a different place at the moment.. maybe i need to a break.. who knows, not long till its over i guess.. and everything will go back to being fine and rain will fall and itll be pleasant again..

its been a while

whenever i type that i start singing that song in my head "its been a while since i could, hold my head up high, and its been a while since i last saw you" anyway thats not really all that important :P but i thought i would tell you all anyway so SUFFER with it

ok so im kinda waiting for something to explode or jump out and start doing the can can... personally i would prefer the first one because it would be less confusing and you cant get frustrated at the can can like you can with an explosion..

so i was listening to the radio today in the car because im cool like that and most of the music was rap... im sorry but i really have tried to get into rap but i cant really.. im still a rock fan and i will always be!!!

so anyway ill start posting on this more and more again now that things have settled down and i kinda have a structure in my life which is always good!
i shall be off now!!!!! have fun CHILdren!!!

hahah im sleeeeeeeeeeeep deprived and i have uni at 9am tomorrow... sweeeeeeeet

ok

So im back in Vic for the weekend, lovely smoke covered victoria. and we all know whats been going on since i havent psted because obviously i have been in SA with you guys, excluding the few Vic people that read this and for them i miss you guys like mad! we all have to catch up next time im down here in glorious victoria.
so schoolies was good fun *left brackets* hahah :P umm things have been pretty up down lately just with different things going on.. and the next month is probably going to be the same so i just want to say sorry to everyone now!

this isnt going to be a long post just because i havent much to say but i thought i would keep the masses happy with a quick update!
and the book of CJism is on its way! so we need to think of a name for it seeing as some bastard already took 'bible'
haha yeh so think of some ideas and let me know what you come up with!

WHOOOP WOOP WOOP WOOP WHOOOOP

haha WEll ladies and gents in EXACTLY 6 hours i will have finished school forever! i am OVER THE MOON EXTATISIZED! i must admit that i am going to miss my friends and hanging out wiht them and being able to see them at any time of the day when i wanted too and just the community nature of ggs... im really going to miss that!
but as of toonight i start a new chapter in my life.. no longer attatched to school and awaiting my results it shall be interesting! AND THEN!!! on FRIDAY!!! (night) ill be in SA at 10:20 hopefully! and itll be awesome and ill be SO happy!!!!!
i cant wait to see you all! its going to be awesome!
i will miss my ggs friends though.. :( but ill seee them in a months time when i have to return to get my results and also just so i can go to my airforce interview whoop woop woop woop Whoop! or if your like sez and you like sheep Wheep weep weep weep WHEEEP! ill be your hero ;) and put you underpressure :p

YAY exam period! that lovely time in year 12 when the end is so so so near (ie 8 days!) but you still have SO much to do.. i mean you have days off where you work but you have to do the exams! how hellish they all are!
but atleast i have started mine and i think english went really well so fingers crossed that i actually did go well! tomorrow i have Classics and IPM one straight after the other.. i think i have classics first.. should be interesting! but hopefully i will do ok.. i mean i know ill do well for IT its my best subject! but classics im not to encouraged about but i guess all i can do is try!
so i had better get back to it!
please feel free to talk to me if im online im sure ill need the break!